...and I wanted it to last forever.
I knew that this miserable mood would catch me as soon as I think more about autumn, about cold weather, about falling leaves. There are moments when I like them... but I'm not happy in those moments, the smile's a sad one.

-----can-you-give-me-the-summer-feeling-back?-----

Last year, it wasn't this way. Yes, 1st of September was a horrible day but I could blame somebody. He made that day shitty.. but they helped me get out of that mood. Because they were there. WE were.

-----hope-I-will-find-you-all-again-someday-----

Summer was OK. Fun, laugh, smiles. Yes, my summer was like that. Concerts, Vama Veche, Bucharest etc. Loved it. But...
New feelings. I NEVER asked for them. I never wanted them. Lies, hidden thoughts. False smiles, false kisses. False happiness. Despisal. Vengeance thoughts? ... Lies, again. Ugly words. This kind of things... My opinion?

-----I might have been wrong. But you're so not right.-----

But there were good ones too. I now know that it actually IS possible to be exactly as you appear. Not faking it. Not accepting insulting talk or behaving in an tacit, understood way. Sincere, not hiding thoughts. Dealable. Never absurd. And they are happy being alive. Good for them Not everybody is like this.
Unfortunately, people change. Missing old times. Already!

My Dying Bride - Roads [Portishead cover]. I love that song.

~Can't anybody see? you've got a war to fight
never found our way, regardless of what they say
How can it feel this wrong?
from this moment, how can it feel this wrong?
Storm in the morning light, I feel
no more can I say, frozen to myself
I got nobody on my side and surely that ain't right
and surely that ain't right~

...
That's it.